Haha... Finished 3 subjects... One more to go... F/O, the most difficult among all the others... But i got 2 days to prepare... Should be enough for me if i manage my time wisely... haha...

The FnB, i cant finish in time, left some points not elaborate... and got 1 part not enough points also... Haih... Die die die... Luckly English and German are still ok... But don't wan to be over confident... Later will be very disappointed...

Results is coming out in 3 weeks... Don't know what will happen to me if i cant manage to get my CGPA higher than 3.0, it might be the end of my studies... Haha... Haih...

Misses him very much nowadays... But i still can handle it... At least, i only have 2 more day to go then i can c him dy... haha... Miss his hug, his kiss and everything... Oh, promise to buy him a bag... Mayb friday will go buy him the bag... hehe... But don't wan tell him... Muahahahaha....

Okla, back to studies... Haven started yet since i reach home 11 am today.. haha... ble... lazy ma... Now go study loh... Wish me luck and pray for my F/O... Arigato Gozaimas!!!!

Today was a very sweet day for me, he came over in the morning, then we went for our gathering, then when he leave for the cyber, he kiss me on the cheek in front of my girl friends... (unexpected action). I was very flattered... haha... really suprise that he will do that to me, at the public... haha... Very sweet of him... hehe

Haha... Then he eat dinner with my family today... hehe... He was waiting for me at the cyber to go pm with me... But i know my mum will go out for dinner at our usual spot so i asked him to come over for dinner, as he is only at the opposite of the restaurant... At 1st he say he is shy, but i manange to persuade him to come over... hehe... He come over and we had dinner together.. I always wanted him to eat with my family, although today is not my whole family, but still considered.... He is quite quiet through the whole process... But he still manage to listen to the conversation between my families... Haha... Later on he say, he got nothing to say... haha... Very cute... Then i say, nvm la, 1st is shy, 2nd is familarisation, 3rd already prepared to get married... (一次生，二次熟，三次过大礼) haha...

Then, we went to pm, and eat quite alot of food... haha... We chatted and laugh... I enjoy the time today... Wish that i can still be with him now... haha... Don't wan this to end... lol... Haha... Today sure will have a good night sleep... Gute Nacht!!!

At 1st, i thought that we would have a talk on yesterday, but he seems like don't want to talk about it, then i will just keep quite.. Can't afford to make him angry another time... Hehe...

Due to my brother, I have to wake up early to send him out to his friends house, so, i offered to send him to work today, and eat breakfast with him. On the way fetching him, he is uncontactable, and forced me to call his house... And i was already half way to his house when he ask me to buy breakfast and eat at his house... I was very suprise that he will ask me to go to his house, when his father is around... But i still turn out from my way to go buy breakfast for him, a bit of unwillingly because of last minute decision...

Went to his house, he act a bit funny, but i know he is happy. Haha... I met his father (not the 1st time), feel shy and a bit awkward. Haha... But we still finish the breakfast (he finished mine). I bought for his father too, but i think his father is shy to eat with us so he didnt join us. Hehe... He knows that im having a stomach upset this morning, and i get grumpy easily... But he tolerant with me. Lol... I know i like to manja him alot... Because, through him, only that i can feel that there is someone that really care bout me. Not that the others don't care, just that they don't show as he shows... I like the way he hug me, kiss me... He makes me feel that im not alone... Thank you dear... I felt ur love, and i hope u feel mine too...

I did something stupid today... Haha... Haih, childish and stupid... Lucky he didnt give up on me... He is still MINE... lol... haha... sure say LC again... but, you wont know this blog... so... i like to LC then i LC la... Haha... :P (你吹啊？) haha... :P

But still, I regret what i did... Not only i hurt myself, and i believe i hurt her also... But what the hell 2 girls hurting each other? Haha... just get carried away by her childishness.. Really cannot tahan her... haha... :P but, i now listen to my dear, ignore her, don't bother her... and... Be happy, and must trust my dear... Hehe... God, please forgive me on doing such an insane and childish thing today... Will not repeat my mistake... haha... Promise...

Today this incident make me cannot concentrate on my studies... Suppose to finish 5 chapters today, but end up finishing 1 only.. haih... Poor me.. stupid emo me... always get carried away by my own emo... have to stop being like this, if not sure everyone start to dislike and hate me... Haha... okla.. back to studies... Wish me luck at exam... Tschuss.... Auf wiederhoren..... lol...

I just want to drop this down... hehe...

I'm feeling deeply in love by you now... You did so much thing you did not do before this... Everytime i meet you, you give me another suprise... It is so happy to find out this side of you... I know you are trying your best to make me happy, and im trying my best to make you happy too... Hopefully we can go further than we thought... I love you dear, more and more as time goes by... 5213344... Muacks.....

Just done my test... Wow... Scare to death... Not that i was scare before the exam, i scare after the test... Cause i was scaring myself by doubting the thing i do, Did i do this or Did i do that.... Haih... But at least, everything is over now... And my lecturer says, i passed... But, what i wan is not just a pass.... I have to SCORE!!!! haha... lol... Here i go again, giving myself more pressure than anyone else... Sometime i think, am i giving pressure myself or, because i can't affort to lose? Haih... Crack down yesterday when he is with me... Cry the world out... I even cry in the karaoke... Shh... only Yun know... haha... Just to release tension... Sang out loud and cry... haha... Reliefed.... But still need to study... Need to be prepared for the worst... Haha...

No one ever care what am i thinking now... Or, they thought they understood me. Are they sure that they really understand me? Human beings are very complicated animals, no one can really understand someone, especially a gal, which uses feelings to do things too much. Human being will adapt to a environment and they might or might not change. So, how can u really determine that you really understand someone? Just like now, does anyone really care what is my feeling and what am i thinking now? Or, are they just pretending to care but in their mind is just 'wutever la'; 'who cares'; or/and 'anything la'. This second u might determine that this person is your good fren, but the next day, because of some incident, u will start thinking, did she/he do that because of you, or she/he is just acting themself? Is it that the longer u mix with someone u will understand the person more? I not too sure about that, Im very confuse now. What you thinking right now, and do you think of my feelings too? Haih...

Aarrghhhh.... Bored to death dy... Haih...
Was studying F/O this morning... Just finish 1 chapter but too boring to continue... haha.. How am going to take exam in this condition??? The thing i most fear has finally come, I can't remember what i've read... I don't like memorizing but, the course i studying now needs to memorize some facts... Haih.... God, help me... I need to score... I'm trying to expect the worst out of the worst now... Scare i will be disappointed if i persuade myself to think positive, cause i might just be over positive... Haha...
I've done my part of presentation, now just to see the end result and get ready for it on Monday only. And, i will need to practice the oral for Monday, and i will need to keep on reminding my self to be slow and steady, Do NOt rush during the test... And, shall practice fidellio on Monday and Wednesday... Then, will be working at the B&A again haih... 4 hours this time... Can i Dont go???? haih....
Dear is not spending enough time for me... haha... He gonna ask me not to merajuk when he see this, but he wont... :P so, no harm if i merajuk here... haha... He is working and im studying... Haih... We only got to meet once in a week, and it is just meeting... I wan an outing... I wan to go watch movie, go have whole day outing with him, but... haih... Hopefully he got the thursday off then we can go out... haih...

Not enough sleep for 2 weeks... And today, i end up sleeping from 7 to 9.30 pm... haha, i dont know how am i going to sleep tonight... haih... We will not be going out anytime this few weeks i guess... He will be working on weekends and will having offday on my schoolday.... haih... But i will still find time to see him, like this morning, i woke up 7.30 in the morning to pick him come over my house, for the sake of seeing him... well, it do go crazy sometimes when you are in love with someone deeply... haha... But still, can't stop missing him, he is being so lovely and it makes me love him, more and more... haha...
Love you darling...

So so so tired.... Haha... Yesterday night went to Sheraton Subang Hotel for the H & T night. It was fun, and tired. I think i wont be so tired if i didnt stay in the hotel... haha... I had a great time, besides that my dress is always slipping down, i really have fun... Hmm.. Mayb my make up is a bit too fair for me.. hah... well, i think i will need to buy a set of make up.. and, learn make up.. hmm... haha..

Our class won the best decoration award for the food festival, at last, we still manage to win something, if not, amanda will sure..... haha... We were all so excited when they announce our class. Haha.. We screamed like hell, till our sore throat pain... I think the whole ball room noticed us... haha... Then even luckier than that, one of my classmates won the lucky draw twice, her number somehow was written twice, but she is very very lucky... Haha... We all are very happy for her...

I drank 1 glass of beer, and i start to have headache, well, its a good try because i never drink tat much before... haha... but it ended very fast oso, after headache, then i feel the heat on my shoulder, neck and worst, my ear... haha... I feel very hot tat time... And i was over excited, till he ask me not to be too high... haha... :P

Around 1 in the morning, the whole class went back to the suite room we booked. And we have fun inside, we played till 4 something 5 something, then went to bed... haha... It was really really fun... Cool man... haha... And he asked me to sleep early... haha... but i still slept at 4... lol...

However, I still wake up at 8 something this morning.. Haha, is not that i don't want to sleep, is just that i cant sleep... So me n Yun was chatting at the corner and waiting for everyone to wake up and have brunch.. unfortunately, when everyone is ready to go, it is already 12 noon... So, we ended up eating lunch at the mamak stall.. haha, then we pack our things and checked out... :P