Went to his house today, got ang pau from his mom, basically is his mom let us choose angpau. Yup, you didnt hear wrongly, is CHOOSE!!! It is all depends on your luck, see how much you will get, i think my luck ran off with my smile, thats why i only get the least amount of the angpau and i was moody for the whole day. We suppose to drop by IOI to watch movie, but unfortunately i forgot to tell one of my fren that we are going IOI, and he booked karaoke as he thought we going to Timesquare. So, all my hardwork of booking those tickets just flush down the drain. And i wasted time doing it yesterday... Haih, this ruin my mood and i was a bit out today... Showing temper to my bf and he tolerate it so much. I feel bad in the end... haih... Its his last day before going back to setapak, and i think i don't want him to go back that's why im being so bitchy... These few days, im very moody... I kept on worrying bout the assignment but no action has been done. Haih... assignment assignment... 1 more week to go, but, haven finish even 1 section of the findings... How? Im worried, but no point worrying and dont do things... So, should just stop here and start doing it... But i miss him... I want him to be here with me... haih...

Don't know why, i just feel like i can't get along with my collegemates anymore. Did i change? Or because my busy-ness, till there is a glass wall between us. Whenever we are together, i don't have topic to talk with them, and the more i'm with them, the more lonelier i feel... Or maybe im use to my brain that is always busy and when it settle down, i feel uneasy. I don't know which is the right answer. Even now, when things happen, I don't know who should i run too. I feel like i will be betrayed by the next moment. I don't feel safe. I don't even feel like telling my bf when things happen. I know is not my friends fault, its just sometimes, i will doubt myself, and worst, my friends. Maybe its too long we didnt chat, or maybe our thinking is different now. And the glass wall, make me feel alone. And someone's attitude really make me think its all my fault. And that did not helf me at all, it just push me into a deeper thought, and a higher wall surrounding me. Really feel like i'm a loneranger now. Everything must be done by me, this and that. Even with my bf, he will also follow what i want. Im tired of taking charge of people. I'm tired of leading, I want to be a follower also. Can someone just stand up and lead???

CNY is around the corner... Hmm... But i don't feel like celebrating it. Basically i cant really enjoy... I have one Malaysian study exam to study, which i don't even know how to do it cause i don't have the book; 2ndly i have a function to run on the 3rd of March, and i need to hand in one individual assignment on the 5th of March... Scheisse... How am i going to enjoy with all this things in my head? Will be worrying sick for the exam and the assignment... Besides, I will be having Mid Term exam starting on 12th of March... Gosh... Have to start studying now, at least have to get ready for it, god knows what will happen that time, although my schedule is only allocated for the exam... haha... Last minute arrangment might appear... Haih... Anyway, i can't really enjoy much but still, wish all of you have a happy and prosperous Chinese New Year... Get alot of Ang Pau and win lots lots money... haha...

I have been busy, busy doing the valentines sales... Very tiring and exhausted... Luckily everything went on very well... I'm glad its temporarily over... After the CNY break, i have to get busy again.. Haha... I guess that's my college life for the coming year... Yesterday was Valentine's Day. I skipped class to settle the sales... But luckily everything went on well and i get back to class... Its a bit messy actually... I wanted to get myself a pink rose, but, theres no more left so i just get 1 with 2 tone colour... Its quite nice too... After class, we settle everything about the accounts and clear up the things... The Malaysian Study class was cancel and i went home early to meet my bf... But on the way it was jamming through out the journey, i was so tired went i reach home, but i still go out with him. Went to pick him and we went to Taman Connought Pasar Malam. He got me a Pink Rose... :D with a heart shape assessory... Hehe... :D I still get my pink rose.. Haha... He teman me the whole night, although its not very romantic but i think its enough for me dy, At least, i spend time with him and that's the most thing i want to do... Next week will be CNY, I'm going back PD and coming back only on the 2nd day i think. He want me to come back earlier so i can go out and accompany him... And come think of that, i can do some of my work also... Haha... I guess its not really a holiday for me... Haha...

Haih... Busy and exhausted week... Everything didn't turn out as what we plan.. Trying not to think so much but it's kinda hard for me... Feeling more and more stress now... As time goes by, with all the assignment not done and all the things that need to be done... I will die soon... Although they wont let me die, but i can foresee that my life is already shorter for few years... lol... haha... Enough of talking crap... Really have to do something to remind myself.

1) Malaysian Study Exam: 1/3/07
2) Individual Assignment-HK: 5/3/07
3) Mid term exam-Need to study and revise (Do i have the time)
4) Malaysian Study Assignment: 30/3/07
5) Group Assingment-HK:
6) Group Assingment-Beverage:

Em... Anything else? I think yeah... Haven add all the events and things that i need to do... haha... tiring... haih... Okla... sleepy dy, still got things to say, but nevermind, tomorrow i will write out, i guess... Oyasiminasai, Sayonara...

Got drunk today in college... Eventually, my lecturer let us test liquor during our beverage class this morning, at 8 to 10 am... ya... Freaking early morning have to drink dy... Haha... I was quite excited because its the very 1st time for me to drink liquor. It tasted alright, some of it like Gin is not very tasty, but i like the brandy... Muahaha... There is a spice taste when u sip in and hold on in your mouth... You can feel your tastebuds jumping up and down... haha... Very fun to try... lol... But my ears and face got red so easily... Later on, continue drinking, then even my neck is red. After 1 hour, my hand and leg started to get red... It was a shocking experience, eventually, the alcohol did not stay in my blood, it jsut spreaded out to every part of my body... I can even feel the limp nods of my neck beating... Haha... Sadly, i didnt not hang on till the last, as we try whiskey, im already drunk... So i didn't try on whiskey and i can't stand the smell of alcohol anymore, so i vomitted in the toilet and feeled dizzy... haha... Can't stand very well... haha.. I even sleep in my accounts class, can't concentrate at all... But later on, i feel better, lucky it come fast and go fast, if not i wont be able to do my German test as well... Hmm... But its a good experience although i was drunk, but i didn't pass out.. Muahaha... lol... At least i know i can't really drink much i guess, or its because of the mixture of different alcohol... Nevermind, its a good try... Haha...

Haih... Having quite a down mood for this 2 days... Ulcer is getting better but very slow... Still suffering the pain... I think i finish off grapevine things for valentines... Did i? Im lost... haha... Revising and arranging notes today... Planning for the assignments oso.. But haih... Im tired, tired of doing everything alone.. Who can come help me? Anyone that can offer help instead of me asking for help??? Haih... Sian... Everyday same thing to do, same thing to think... haih....

Lost myself again yesterday... Don't know what i want and i hurt him once again... When will i learn? I don't know the answer... Am i trying hard enough to maintain this relationship? I know i hurt him, from the way he treat me, i know... It hurts me too.. But how come i only regret when he treat me like that? really that 犯贱? haih...