Don't know why, i just feel like i can't get along with my collegemates anymore. Did i change? Or because my busy-ness, till there is a glass wall between us. Whenever we are together, i don't have topic to talk with them, and the more i'm with them, the more lonelier i feel... Or maybe im use to my brain that is always busy and when it settle down, i feel uneasy. I don't know which is the right answer. Even now, when things happen, I don't know who should i run too. I feel like i will be betrayed by the next moment. I don't feel safe. I don't even feel like telling my bf when things happen. I know is not my friends fault, its just sometimes, i will doubt myself, and worst, my friends. Maybe its too long we didnt chat, or maybe our thinking is different now. And the glass wall, make me feel alone. And someone's attitude really make me think its all my fault. And that did not helf me at all, it just push me into a deeper thought, and a higher wall surrounding me. Really feel like i'm a loneranger now. Everything must be done by me, this and that. Even with my bf, he will also follow what i want. Im tired of taking charge of people. I'm tired of leading, I want to be a follower also. Can someone just stand up and lead???