Yesterday, at last, he teman me. Although it's suppose to be the whole day, but because something happen to my friend, so we went home early. It was a replacement for Saturday actually, we plan to go out on Saturday but he rejected me just because i got no car. So bad of him, but nevermind la, he teman me yesterday already, forgive him la... hehe... I told my best friend bout me and him, after that, i asked him, can i tell actually? he say why not? he say he didnt forbid me to tell anyone from the start. I know he is telling the truth, i can feel it. He cares bout my feeling more now. I'm glad he did. I think he appreciate me alot more now compare to last time. Its a good thing, as i can feel his love to me n i'm sure he feel mine too. Well, it's kinda suprise to me, as i haven experience this part before (as i remembered). Hope this will last longer than i thought.

For you,
I misses you, I love you, I feel like hugging you, I feel like kissing you and I feel like seeing you all the time.
I thank you for coming to my world. I thank you for being so caring and nice to me. I thank you for supporting me. I thank you for accompanied me when i need it. I thank you for loving me. I thank you for brighten up my live.

Ich Liebe Dich...

I dunno why, I feel so sad after seeing him today... Maybe is because knowing our financial status gonna be one thing that not allowing us to see each other that often. I know he is worried, I'm worried too, but worrying too much for now is a useless thing to do. Although I'm saying that, but i still can't help myself to stop worrying. Well, looks likely my dream is not going to come true during this September. Nevermind that, I should be comforting him instead of being sad in this matter. And, he is feeling sick, that's why he is so quiet today, he even said sorry because he can't buy me something to eat today, I feel so guilty for asking him to buy me food knowing his condition is the same as mine. I wish I could help him to do something bout this, but he won't let me help him much. His egoistic thinking shows again whenever something happens like tat. Well, please please let us get through this together. Please don't leave one of us behind, I want to stay with him through out the highs and lows.

For you,
Please don't leave me behind, I want to be with you all these while and definitely in the future. Please don't shut up the door that opens your heart. We will get through this together, do not worry bout me, I'm old enough to take care of myself. And I know you don't like asking money from others, but when it's desperately needed, please do ask, I don't want you to suffer from hunger. Please please remember that there is still some one out here that is really care bout you. Please do take care of your self. At last, I would like to say, I will always love you like I ever do no matter what happen now or in the future. And, I hope you will too... Cheer up and Get Well!!! ^_^

P.S. It's ok for not buying me food to eat. Don't feel sorry, I can always eat at home. The last thing I want to hear from you is SORRY...

Something terrible happen on Tuesday... N that incident makes you asking me to be your gf(officially) but i scare this is just only one of your silly decisions... Although cialy,i have waited for this moment quite long, but i dun wan it to happen like tat... It shouldn't be in this way, not with this incident... Anyway... The way u treat me is far far different from last time, u really care me alot, lot more than before... But i scare this is just the beginning... I dun wan to have false hope again... N i can't help myself to keep on calling you... Its bout 5 times a day, I noe u will get bored later on, like last time... I dun wan to hear the impatient voice of yours... It hurts alot when you sound like tat... Well, I hope after 2 years of separation, we can go on further more... I will try not to do the same mistake like last time again... Lastly, I will always love you and hope ur love will always be with me....