It's been a few days i did not update my blog. well, life is been quite busy these few days. I have just hand in my group reservation report; I did the menu card for our group on the saturday morning; and i have a German presentation about Berne next week, either Montag oder Freitag... Then i have to call Westin and the 3 star hotel to make an appointment for the interview of front office, i need to call the the Piccolo Mondo restaurant to make appointment with the manager to do interview also and get ready the questionaire for the interview. Und ich need to prepare the menu for the theme with Yun by latest on Montag. After that have to do the recrusition form for the menu. Then have to do the PDP summary report and hand in after the mid term break. Have to get ready for the food fest and become the RM for the 1st theme. And i have to spend sometime with my dear also. Oh ya... The most important thing, I got 2 test on Friday, Deutsch und Front Office. Well, i think i will just revise it tomorrow night, hope it will be enough time for me.. Haha...

Well, last saturday (26/08/06), i went to Sharaton Subang Hotel to become a part time waitress for a malay wedding. It was quite easy job but i think i was a bit nervous and i spilt 3 glass of water... Lol... Haha... But basically it was a bit easy, and i have a feeling like my partner doesn't want me to do the work, or maybe he just scare i drop all the things onto the customer's face.. Lol... haha... Well, is a good experience basically, not as tiring as i thought, and i get pay for it. Haha... Although is onli RM 30, but i still glad i went for the job.... Hope to get more in the future, and i will join if i have time... Oh, one small thing, I saw my classamate during the job ----- BOB, he was there as a guest. No wonder he didn't want to come for the job... Lol... Haha.....


And for you dear,
I wanted to go out with you on Sunday, but i wake up in the morning , you already went out to the cyber... and again fur die Montag und Heuter... I really don't understand why you wan to go there almost everyday, but i can't really control you and you don't like me to control you also, right? Well, as i waited and waited, at last you say tomorrow will go out with me... But hopefully nothing will be in our way to go out la...

Rain rain rain... It is raining everyday... I hate it... I have to take one hour to reach home because of rain and jam... but its still ok for me, my bf more worst... He is now still stuck in the rain... Haih.. 1st, heavy rain make him cannot take bus, then now LRT breakdown because of rain and flood.... Now he is stuck at the station, can't take taxi also, cause jam... Haih.... I'm really worried bout him... He is alone now waiting for train... I wish i could be there with him oso... at least he got accompany... He wont feel lonely... his phone is almost out of battery, that's why i don't dare to msg him... haih....

Oh ya... this weeks production is at the 'Brand new' Cafe' 87... I seriously seriously don't like it... I miss windows... I miss the kitchen and the restaurant... The cafe is so small then kitchen is also too.. We bumb into each others buttock each time we walk pass each other.. haih... really wish that we can do our production at windows... and the lights at the restaurant really sucks.... Blue lights... can u imagine that? haih.. But we got no choice but to adopt it... haih... sad... really sad...

Sick sick sick... I hate to fall sick... Whenever i dun have enough sleep for a few days then i will fall sick... I will be having flu and i hate flus... haha.. Anyway... He came to look for me yesterday, we went to Low Yat to buy his friends earphone... We suppose to meet anyway because i helped him to do his assignment. I suppose to hand him the assignment. So... he owe me a meal... He borrowed money from his mom but well... If he spent it on me means he will not have money to spent for the rest of the week. So he did not spent on me yesterday. I told him not to be sad bout it. I will be alright if he just accompanied me... haha... So... We went for dinner and go home... I was exhausted actually, i wanted to stay with him longer, he actually offered to go for a walk after dinner but he say he want to study so i rejected him... Am i a bit silly? haha... I wanted him to stay with me so often but when he offered i just reject... Well, that's me... I'm siao... Haha...

For you,
Darling, do not worry bout money, I love you for what you are, not ur properties... So, just love me as i love u, that will be enough for me... Ich Liebe Dich...

Yesterday we went to Pyramid... Hehe... It's quite boring actually, as i've been working near to that area for half a year... But with him, everything is ok... Haha... My stamina was not good yesterday, cause of period... I can't eat much, and easily to get tired. We watched Garfield 2 but we miss the front part because of my stupid watch... It was slow.... Then, we bought my shoe... Hehe... Another one... and ate Mc D for lunch... Around 4pm, we went home... He was tired because went home late the night before... So i ask him to go have some sleep, and i will get some too... Haha... But when i wake up, he is already out... He went to cyber cafe again... One thing i don't understand is why guys love to go to cyber cafe? Haih... But anyway, he accompanied me dy so i just let him go... haha... At night, I went out dinner with my mom and my sis, then we go to PM... Later on, went home and go on9, got nervous cause can't find the digital camera which is not mine, but luckly found it.... Uploaded some pictures and chatted with Yun, Joshua and Kan Sha... Around 12, my bro back already so i left the com and let him use... Then i messaged him, asked him is it want to have the cyber as a second wife... He just laugh... And say he just reach home... Hehe.. (I'm quite naughty sometimes) Then we had a small chat trough sms and we went to bed... I slept quite soundly cause i know today somehow, i will be meeting him... Haha... :P

Oh ya... the pic above taken while in my car... Wanted to go back from Pyramid dy... hehe...

This morning is a disaster... I was awake by my period pain in 6 am morning... Then i couldn't sleep anymore till 8 something.... I was so pain till i was sweating because of my pain... I messaged him but as the usual, he can't reply, then i call him and his sleepy voice ask me to find some medicine to eat... Haih.... So i suffered through out the whole process... He called me again at 8 something... He ask how i feel now... Then he suggest to come to my house to accompany me, but my mom is at home, so he say don't wan... Then he ask me to rest more and i ask him to go back to sleep... Later on, i slept to almost 11 am (at last... a good sleep) But now my tummy is having a big grumbling, I'M HUNGRY!!! And... I'm going out today!!!! Yippie!!!!

Today is just another ordinary day... Well, i am as tired as yesterday... I wish i know why... Well, he went out with his friend again, and that was after i asked him out and he rejected me... How sad... And how cruel is he... He rather to go out with his friends than me... Well, maybe it's because of me... Anyway, to my suprise, I wasn't angry at all, and the tears that i cry was so fake till i know that i'm actually faking it... haha... I called him a few times as usuall, and maybe he thought i'm still angry so he did not pick up one of my call, but then i messaged him and tell him im not angry only he pick up my call... And, guess what??? He say he will go out with me tomorrow... And the moment i confirm with him, I cried... For real, this time i cried from my heart, really crying.... Well it's alright after all... At least i get to see him tomorrow... haha.... :P


P.S : When i found out i'm not angry, i was so scare cause i can't feel anything, not sad or angry at all, i was afraid that i might just don't love him anymore, but luckily in the end it went on alright... I just like to be silly sometimes... Hehe....

Feeling tired and sleepy now, and i think i'm going to be sick...Oh yeah, the purpose i'm straining myself in front of the computer is because i just want to write down this... I totally understand him now... I really trust him now... And i will give my full support to him... Although i will missing him alot but still i will try not to find him so often... I think he is happy too...(because i understood him) He is sweet sometimes, but sometimes he just... Well, i will still go through that... Haha... Anyway, just want to say... I'M HAPPY!!!!! ^_^

Haih.... He was in the cyber today for the whole day... Suppose to be reading his article for his presentation... But he ended up in playing games for the whole day... So call busy la... Then he claim that he didnt bring his pendrive so have to go back again... Then he say he is very busy... And i just reply him 'Play game at cyber also busy' then he say want to cut off the conversation already... I don't understand... Why is he treating me like this? Or is it all my fault again? I really don't understand... I really want to stop finding him but i know it will end up breaking up this realationship... And that is the least that i want... Haih....

I'm sad actually... He say to me yesterday night that he won't be able to go out with me for the next few weeks... Which is actually he having his final exam... He claims that he will be very busy till no time to accompanied me (which i don't know how true is that)... So... In other words, I'm not going to see him for nearly a month... :'( I still can't get through this... I was crying yesterday night after this news... I feel insecure... I'm very scare he will just leave me now.... We just quarrelled on the sunday, and I'm still in the recovering process but he just say this to me... It hurts... Really hurts... Why must he say it now? Why can't he just spare some time with me??? Even a dinner also he say no time.... How true is that? I don't like to compare but i'm sure if his buddies ask him to go out sure he will have time to go... Why like that??? I really hope that it will not end like what i think.... I must think positively... OPTIMISTIC!!!!! Haih.....


For you,
Please let me trust you; please stay beside me; please do not betray my trust... I'm definitely sure i will be missing you, which i always do, and i hope u will miss me too... Please do not get angry if i start to call you too often... I will try to control my self, and please do not forbid me from calling you... As that is the only way for me to keep in touch with you...
Last but not the least.... I love you, from the bottom of my heart... Ich Liebe Dich...

Me and my bf went to KLCC-PC Fair yesterday... It was pack with people and i hurt my toenail. Eventually my bf stop walking n i didnt know so i kicked his shoe and there goes my toe... It was bleeding slightly. The rest of the day i was walking very carefully cause i was afraid that someone step on my hurt toe... Haha... It was quite tiring actually cause there is alot of people over there. My bf wanted to buy a MP3 but when he saw a MP4 he was so into it but i persuade him to buy MP3 instead of MP4. At the end, he say he will think bout it 1st... Haha... I bought nothing except of a rechargeble battery set. When i say those MP3 and MP4, i was attracted to it also, but i already had 1 MP3 so i just let it be... Haha... Around 3.30 pm we decided to go have something to eat. But everywhere is pack with people. At the end we ended up at Burger King. Haha.. Around 4.30 we went home cause my bf got dinner with his family.. It was a tiring day, so i went home and sleep... Haha...

For you,
You say buy me lunch and you did it although i was angry with you that time. But got one thing we didnt do which was part of our planning is to buy stationary for me... And we totally forget bout it... Haha... Nevermind la, that one we can go out again if we want... Maybe today??? haha...

Haha... Now only I know... I should have guess it earlier... But i choose to trust you, but since now I know the truth dy, so i won't trust you anymore... Luckily got him... He told me everything... Why you want to do this? I don't get it... Or you just want to check something bout me? Well... What ever you thinking about, I'm telling you now --- Your are right, whether is it true or not, just believe in what you hear and stop bothering me. If you dare, just ask me directly, don't use such a indirect and stupid way to test me... If I won't tell you, means I won't tell anyone else... Especially stranger... Stop disturbing me and doing stupid things... I had enough of you... I swear I won't bother anymore...

For you,
Hehe, sorry bout yesterday. I just want to see you, at last, I did too... Haha... ^.^ I know u can't be with me everytime, I will try to control and understand you more. As you say, I should be more independent. But I just like to stick with you... :-P Don't be mad at me... Ok??? Love ya... Muacks....

I feel very uneasy now... I think she knows. Did we make the wrong decision? Did I do the wrong thing? Is it all my fault? Am I the 3rd party? I'm not really sure now. Can anyone tell me what to do? I'm really scare. I told him already, but he got no credit to reply me. I'm really worry now. What should i do? I really feeling insecure... I want to know is it all my fault? Help me please......

I'm very moody these few days... I was crying almost everyday, in fact its everyday since saturday. I dunno what's going on with me. And i think he feel it also. I was having a slight quarrel with him yesterday, and i hung up the phone. I feel bad later on so i called him back and talk to him, luckily he is not mad at me, just nag me bout something. Haha, im glad of that. I dunno why I'm like that these few days, I can cry over small things but today is better. I'm glad he is beside me.

Oh ya, I know today they are talking bout me, bout my bossiness. I know, I can sense it. Well if they don't like it then i won't do it. But they all should also stop asking me things like i should know all the things.If they feel I'm too bossy, just take charge of things instead leaving it there. And make sure everyone goes to you instead of coming to me. I hate people talking behind me and they think I dunno. Or perhaps they purposely want me to know. Anyway, whatever it is, I don't care anymore. From now onwards i will keep my mouth shut and i won't do anything to remind them unless they ask so. Since they don't like then I won't do it. I will make sure i won't. And for them, God bless them