Bored, bored, bored... another boring day... Haha..

He work till 2 today, i was struggling whether to follow my bro to timesquare and look for him or not, but as i think twice, i think we will spend more, if i go find him like that, so i choose not to go... Waited till 2, he finished work, called him and asked what he going to do, he say depends on me whether i got any plan, I told him, i wanted him to come to my house, but what is the point for coming over for a few hours then he go back??? So, i let him go to cyber, again... A lot of you will say that i should not let him go to cyber, but i don't know why, i don't want to control him so much... Even like that day, he played for the whole night without sleeping, and im not angry at all... Haha... Funny right? haih... But, hopefully, when the new sem starts, he wont be playing as much as he is now... Hopefully la... Praying hard.....

Oh, Chiung say want to celebrate my b'day on monday, which he might be busy working. But on tuesday will be his off day. So, although i wish that he can come on monday, and also accompany me on tuesday, but still, he needs to work, so, i will have to let go one day, I want him to accompany me on tuesday, cause i really dont want to be lonely on my birthday, like last year... I want to go out, and at least, im not alone... I know its impossible for him to off 2 days, i know... So, no matter how much i want him to go, i wont tell him...

To you:
I know you are having a hard time now, with my this kind attitude, because you don't know what i want. Actually, I know what i want, but im afraid that, if i follow my heart, it will be harder for you after that... So, i choose to keep quite... Sorry dear... Really really sorry...