Hmm... a great suprise to see that an old friend read my blog and commented... Thx darling...

Im not trying to control him, just that, im worry bout his future, and indirectly, i act like im controling him. But, im not having a good time also, im not enjoying. I kept all my needs and wants to myself, dare not tell him, cause all those things will need to spend money and money is the major problem for him and for me... Im trying to let go all my needs but i end up not being happy. Its not enough for him to accompany me, i want more. I want outing, I want genting, I want to have fun, I want to play... But all these, needs money. I told him i don't want a present, but only i know, actually i really want a present, but... I told him tuesday come to my house will do, but now, knowing that he needs to work full on monday, makes me think that, will i be happy if he just come over to my house and he end up playing the computer?? I even come across of having a b'day cake, by him... Ha!!! how come what ever i think needs money??? Can i do something that is not related to money??? Didnt go genting, because of money; no movie, because of money... All is because of money, Im tired of this situation... I don't like being this way... How come the part time job is not on??? Haih... Maybe i should just forget bout his future thingy and have fun at this moment, at least, i enjoy and im happy... Maybe, something to think of tonight dy...